A marvelous week past.
The whole of last week, I spent it with my future wife, and her sister's family.
It was marvelous.
My new diet is going well.
Despite temptations everywhere, there's nothing like a heart attack like episode to whip one back to healthy eating shape.
I love being with Jing.
She makes feel good about myself.
She constantly reminds me, how much she love me.
She calls me, her "lucky charm!"
I admit, I like that.
Being called a lucky charm.
I also, constantly remind her how much she means to me.
Like how much the earth, needs the sun.
Yes, that much.

I am here. I am now.
I always see 3 number combination "444" does it mean anything?
A quick Google search yields "444 =  Angel numbers."
Whatever it is, I've welcome its significance.
God willing it is a holy set of numbers.
If not, may God help me.

Hello, my name is Dagon.
I had a mild high blood pressure attack on 5/25/2015.
Memorial day.
My girlfriend and I, were at a Souplantation.
As I was eating my second plate of all you can eat salad buffet,
I started feeling light headed.
My vision was starting to blackened, my chest started to tighten.
Before I knew it, I started to grasp for air.
Right then, and there....I thought I was having a heart attack.
Yes, I thought I was going to die......inside a Souplantation.

And it didn't stop there.
I kept on having small mild (but scary) attacks.
My head was aching constantly.
Quietly induced by what had just happened.
Add the fact that, when my girlfriend monitored by blood pressure the results were:
163/104
Yeah, I thought I was going to die.

So I did what everyone would have done in this day and age, look it up on Google.
What a big mistake.
After reading upon reading various testimonies, and scary stories of random people on health forums regarding heart attacks.
It only fueled my increasing attacks of both anxiety, and panic.

So much so, that because my mind kept rewinding those dreadful stories I've read online, my mind also started to ask a lot of  what if's;
 
"what if it is an aneurysm?"
"what if it is a heart attack?"
"what if it is an ulcer induced heart attack?"
"what if it is an appendicitis induced attack?"
"what if if it is cancer?"

So yes, my mind was in trouble full of questions that I didn't have before but because of Google, it added more questions, more stuff to my already troubling ordeal.
So at that moment, because of the stories I read online, I thought my heart was a ticking heart attack time bomb.
That at any moment, I can just drop dead.

I had to find out what's happening to my 38 year old body.
So I decided to get checked by getting my blood drawn, and my urine tested.
My results is due 6/11/15.
In the meantime, I have to watch my diet.
And of course, I need to add rigorous exercise in to my daily life.
As far as exercise is concerned, I am not worried.
I was a health nut before.
But I fell off the health wagon a few years ago, and if this is a calling for me to get back at it.
I am there!

I kept praying to God, not to take me yet.
I have so much to live for.
I made a promise to him.
I Intend to keep it.